things fall apart.

Feeling very, very, very VERY bad.
Listening to rain
Currently addicted to nothing
Currently irritated by everything
Current MSN details: I don't know.
Today's Cards: I can't bring myself to read.


I haven't seen Kel online in a very long time, and I really, really need her right now. She's the only one who takes me seriously enough to listen to me when I've got problems. Everyone else plies me with the "I'll just talk to you when you're feeling better" or "don't say that".

What makes me feel so terrible is not the fact that I'm failing at school, but that no one is around to help. I don't have classes with any friends, or even friends at school, and it's horrible having to feel so alone in the midst of so many people.

A couple of days ago I was feeling fine after a really bad time. And then more shit goes wrong and it's horrible again. History midterm is tomorrow and I'm considering not going at all because I haven't got a clue what to write. Rhetoric drafts due tomorrow, and we have to bring our three sources, and yay, brother didn't even pick up the books I wrote down for him. Yay for being royally fucked!

Yay for being stupid!

Yay loneliness!

Yay yay yay life yay everything! YAY!