feeling» slightly depressed but quite pissed (sounds like PMS to me...)
listening to» "re-offender" ~ travis
currently addicted to» hitting myself over and over in the head, destroying all cameras everywhere, flipping people off

Today has probably been one of the worst and most miserable days ever. I have probably been called ugly in some form or another quite possibly more times than I ever have in only this last 24-hour period. And then the stupid yearbook picture we had to take for English just threw me over the edge and really pissed me the fuck off.
» Last night I sent Kellie a picture of myself and she insinuated many times that I was really, really ugly. At least people are truthful these days. What are friends for? [groans]
» In English, the teacher made us take a yearbook pic that no one ever agreed to take, and also she's making every student pay $2.00 for it even though no one agreed to those terms either. We took the picture, and I covered my face. Then the stupid girl taking the picture was all like, "Hey... um you... Can you like... [fades off]" So I uncovered my face and as she counted to three, I covered my face again. Then when they were passing around the paper to put our name (in order) on, I just walked back to class. Some people just don't understand that not everyone likes taking pictures. [flips off those two yearbook bitches]
» Leaving English class to go to History, Melanie walked out of her room and passed by and I could see in her eyes that she was thinking "loser" as I walked past. Well at least I'm not a poser, fat-ass-jigglypuff wannabe-plus-size-model. [flips her off too]
» After school, I was walking downhill and these guys behind me were all, "Is that a dude or a chick?"...."I think it's a chick".... "No, maybe it is a guy".... and since that bastard-ass white (does that sound racist of me?) fucker Daniel was there, I knew he started it. Lucky for him I didn't turn around and beat him to death right there and then. [flips his ugly fat-ass off too]
» And one other thing, people who copy art and sell it off as their own idea are bastards. Especially when they barrage you with it and then when you try to show them what you've done, they ignore you. Go to Hell, you person who I won't even mention because I find you too low to mention. [flips anonymous *koffartistwannabekoff* off too]

Ahem. Now that that's out I feel much better. But now I am resolved that I will save up money so I can get some plastic surgery, first and foremost, a nose job. Then I'll do my eyes and my lips. Whatever makes me feel better about myself because my self-esteem has officially dropped so far into the negative that it's never coming back from the dead.
Sorry this was so long and boring.

feeling» a bit chilled
listening to» "play dead" ~ björk but switching to "peace the fuck out" ~ travis
drinking» yoohoo
currently addicted to» imitating the brit accents on prince of persia, hating school (they gave me pe again but i don't need it anymore), holding back from coloring a picture i really need to color

Okay.
I have to finish coloring the seraphim art trade I'm doing with Celestial-SeraphiMan, a devart buddy... I really am not in the mood to color until I finally get myself a tablet. But I will color this picture eventually to finish off my half of the art-trade because it's my obligation of sorts, I suppose. So now I must continue working on it, I suppose.
Hopefully I can go bowling later, because although I suck at it, I like it and it gives me something to do.
hahaha... Sorin's thinking of doing a blog too. Now wouldn't that just be cute? A man who can't speak English worth a damn (well okay, he's pretty fluent, but he's got a cute Euro accent to go along with it) with his own little journal? I don't know. If he decides to do it though, I'll tell you about it.
Heehee... this Yoohoo is getting to me... x |

feeling» clean and ready to color something
listening to» "the beautiful occupation" ~ travis and "i believe in a thing called love" ~ the darkness... all simultaneously. don't ask how that's possible.
eating» fudge brownies
drinking» milk
currently addicted to» singing along to the darkness, laughing at the word "boobies", the sims: bustin' out (hey, i made tom! cool me!)

I went to sleep reluctantly at five this morning, not feeling tired at all from that little 3-4 hour nap I had the evening before, finding myself awake finally at noon today. Made some brownies for no reason. The last post, I said I was going to color my Pocket Marth pic... well guess what?
I still haven't started on it. But that's what I will do right about now. (really, i will! sans déconner! no shit!)
I found a pretty Wacom tablet at Fry's, so I'll be getting one of those soon as a veeeerry early birthday present for myself (and partly from my dad "thanks dad!") My doggie (chihuahua) is barking at the vacuum cleaner as always, but whenever you push it towards her then she runs off scared. She's stupid sometimes, but what can you do, I guess. My ther doggie (pomeranian) is just running around in circles as always....
Well, I also finally got my Björk Greatest Hits CD and just yesterday I found out that the new Travis CD was out. I'd been waiting for that one; I didn't know it was already out.

feeling busy and tired
listening to "oasis" ~ gackt
currently addicted to editing devart site, drawing (omg! that's a first), thomas (my honeybear)

I'm sooooo tired. I've been online all day just editing my DevArt site... I guess I feel strangely obligated to do it. Tomorrow I'll finish up there and (possibly) get started on coloring my Pocket Marth picture. I'd better go soon before my doofy brother starts complaining about me being an "online freak" even though I'm just here to edit my damn crapola... shhhhhiitake!
[calms down]
Okay. I'm calm now. *inhale* calm. *exhale* anger.
[has asthma attack]

feeling utterly stuffy and bored
listening to "solaar pleure" ~ mc solaar
drinking peach iced tea
currently addicted to gackt, the gba version of the sims: bustin' out, kouyu shurei, bowling

Home now... and really bored.
I finally bowled for the first time ever, so I'm semi-happy now, I suppose. I'd better get started on coloring some pictures of mine, because I feel sorta picture-empty right now. I need something new to look at!!!
Oh well. [to uncolored picture] Here I come, Marth. Link. Roy.
*long sigh*

feeling semi-toasty
currently addicted to snow, my doggie slippers

We're at Big Bear now, after a really long ride here... Umm... Not really much to say except that it's real nice and there's snow on the ground. Maybe tomorrow we can throw some snow at each other and fun stuff like that. We got a pretty nice cabin, and it's purr-ty warm as well. I think we're going to watch Return of the King at the theater up here on Friday, as well, so... lots to do I guess.
Well, I'd better haul ass now and get settled in. Nighty night. Have fun at school everyone.
hahahahah!

sorry. [feels homesick for thomas] my tom. wonder what he's doing right now. oh well. bye for now.

feeling slightly apprehensive about this week
eating fortune cookies
currently addicted to gackt, kouyu shurei

So... I'll be gone until Saturday, which I suppose is good for me--getting out of the house and all, which I never do. I'll tell you the details of whatever happens whenever I get back.
Umm... I strangely have nothing to say, so... 'til we meet again?

feeling ranma-withdrawn
listening to "orange juice" ~ guitar wolf
currently addicted to finding more ranma 1/2 dvd season box sets

Ack... my brother and I already finished the season 1 & 2 dvds of Ranma. *sob* But oh well. I think I can hold out until we get the others. For now, I'll occupy myself with Fire Emblem, which I just started last night (and is as much of a drug as The Cure is), which I like lots. The animation is so good and the dudes so far are prettyfull, like Erk and Sain. Yep. Now I know what Kellie was talking about all those times....
I also think I'd better finish my Ranma fanart and start on a Fire Emblem fanart maybe? Or do another Ranma fanart, maybe of my dear Mousse all by himself.... Oh whatever. As long as my hand is still alive and twitching in painful arthritis-y spasms (hehe it's not really that bad), I'm sure I'll be able to fit all those in.
And maybe a little cute comic-that-makes-no-sense, which I so specialize in. I really wish I could do one of Marth, Link, and Roy... but I really just suck horribly at little comics. I'm so mediocre, but oh well. ^_^
Must get to work now on that Ranma fanart, I guess. 'Til we meet again... muahahaha!

feeling hungry and lonely
listening to "fade away" ~ by some dude whose name i forgot
currently addicted to food, if i can find any first....

it's new year's. big whoop.
all that means is that i have to change the 3 to a 4 in my signature.
and a 4 is much more work than a 3.
grrrr!
but all i can say is that i do like january.